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I consider myself fortunate to have some of the best friends on the internets. Through friends of friends and blogging groups I have met some of the best people out there! They are happy and awesome people who have good hearts and intelligent minds. Every one of my them has given me something either through their words or actions that I adore. I carry every one of them in a special place in my heart.

I am very particular about who I add to my friends list, not because I am judgmental (which I can be, because I do have my expectations), but because there is one member of the myspace community who believes it is her personal mission to upset my peace.

I can honestly say that I have sympathy for this person and I wish that they could find their own closure for their hatred. Sincerely. No one can carry so much animosity without it eating away at them. I believe their life could be so much happier if they let go of the ego. Not let go because her actions cause me distress, because they truly don't. Partial truths, misconstruction of facts, and altered personal perceptions written for attention and personal validation will never change MY truth or who I am and how comfortable I am with those things - regardless of any name calling and continual attempts at bullying through other methods. Let go because stepping back, anyone can see a lot of pain and anger and a misconception of true inner peace that is confused with self acceptance. I can accept that, and I forgive her for it.

But you can't change people or make them see things from a different perspective can you?

I posed a question to my friends, and I asked them all for their advice on the situation the other day. I had a conversation with one of them (I'm not sure is she wishes to be identified, but she knows who she is, and how much I appreciate her help!) that clarified so much for me - and it really kind of shook me that I never realized it before.

She told me that this person is an "Energy Vampire".

I cannot find the words to describe it any better than it was described for me so I will simply paste what was written to me.

"By what she described in her blog and how she responds to comments, she needs to suck energy from other people......and it's easier to make people let go of their negative, than positive. So, in essence she has "baited" people to respond with negative emotion....She's also obviously working hard to bait you."

It IS so much easier for people to release their negative energy than it is for them to release the positive, and especially when in groups like a blogging forum. Everyone has anger and sadness in their lives and everyone needs an outlet. Some find that outlet by negative words. I know that, for me, the internet is a personal retreat and a way for me to find some relaxation in my busy life. Not for negativity. I have chosen other, much more positive methods for dealing with the stress that life can sometimes bring.

I laugh with these people who touch my heart. I blog my thoughts and opinions. I vent my frustrations in life - and not forgetting my joys I express those as well. I exercise my creativity through my layouts and web designs. It may not be all of me, but it is ALL ME.

So you know what I would like? I would like for any of my readers who come here, and any of my friends who stop in just to say "hello" to leave my pages with positive energy. I want them to know that I am happy that they were here to share in my thoughts, life experiences, and friendship. I want them to share with me their own and never be afraid of judgment for their opinions.

I am going to continue to be happy with my family, friends, and my life. I am going to continue to evolve into the person I want my children to be like. I will continue to just breathe, and continue to let go of the things I cannot change even if i am of the opinion that it would be for the best if they did.

I'll continue to aspire to always bring joy to the people I care for - and as I said in my last blog, whenever they are around me the best way to describe how they feel when they leave?

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