I am sad today

In dealing with all of the *new* and improved stress of getting everything together to send to the Army to have them say "this isn't good enough" yesterday and have Duane call to tell me that - and then have to redo it all over again and get MORE when there is noone to get more FROM (this being part of my problem and needing him to come home!) and deal with my doctor (who for an educated woman, really is pretty dense) who doesn't seem to understand exactly what I need from her -

She put me on Paxil again.

5 years after I stopped taking those damn pills, she is making me take them again - or she won't write my letter for Duane to come home.

She said the stress that I am experiencing could be more damaging to my baby Kindle than the pills would ever be.

I accidentally bonked Aidynn in the eye with the bathroom trash can when trying to get her out of it this morning - it cut open the skin on the side of her right eye and was bleeding a lot. It doesn't need stitches, but it looks horrible and swollen and bloody, and every time I look at her I cry. I feel so bad. I can't believe I hurt her.

When will this end?

I want my life back.