Perception

Our worlds are based on independent filters. Perspective and perception are such broad topics, but both matters come down to individuality.

The thing about personal perception, I wonder, is when it comes down to it - what does it really matter? You can do your damnedest to be a good person - the person YOU want to be and approve of - and even if you feel you are doing an adequate job of that, there is almost always going to be someone who does not approve/understand/agree - especially since personality's conflict at times.

I think it all comes down to perception being too much of an ego based idea; the larger the ego, the more aggressive the opinions, the more profound the inability to understand the variances of perception. Spend too much time worrying what others think of you and where will it lead?

It's a large part of the problems with the evolution versus creation debate. No one can win that argument. It is all based on personal experience and the perception it inspires.

Every member of the human race is a dynamic force. Constantly growing energy, cleverly disguised as flesh, absorbing the smallest particles from an intricate weave of thought, action, and time – not generally aware of the gradual takeover of their perceptions.

It's almost frightening to think about – you have no control over it. Your perception must change.

I can shake your hand one moment, and greet you in all honest sincerity. You may notice that I smile at you, and you may think that I am kind. Or not.

If you were to forget me an instant later, and greet me the next day I would be a different person – and so would you. Together it is possible that we could form different conclusions of each other.

It is still on my profile page, and was my headline for the longest time;

"'That's not my real reflection', she said. 'I've changed so much since then most people barely recognize me.'"

Perhaps not on such an immediate scale, but every one of us can look into our past reflections and identify with our previous selves; while noticing at the same time that we are much different now.

Along with the positive attention that a few of my blogs have received has come some unwanted attention. Recently, I was called "fake" here on MySpace by someone who barely knew me long ago; seemingly a whole other lifetime for me. Fake because I am NICE and they presume that in reality I am not. I'm not upset by the comment, because it's entirely possible that within their perception of the person they knew, who I am now could be a completely different person.

Example:

The person I was before probably would have jumped up to meet the attack and to justify and defend her position. Also most likely insult and ridicule the person or the unwarranted opinion – and most likely in a very venomous way. It's a knee jerk reaction to behave immaturely. I will plead guilty to past transgressions.

The person I am now, however, could care less what they have to say. I am not this person's friend, in fact at one point I really didn't like them – for reasons that I feel are justifiable still. Now, I find this person and those feelings irrelevant. What they think of me is irrelevant. I am not responsible for their opinions or feelings. I am not responsible for their actions. I am only responsible for my own.

Apparently, my perception has altered.

Those friends, who have taken the time to get to know me, know very well that I am not "fake". I am who I am. I am happy, and I have far too many more important things in my life to focus on, and much better things to do with my time than to sit in front of my computer (in my rarely occurring free time) pretending to be something I am not.

I'm too busy focusing on the things that matter.

"I once had a garden filled with flowers that grew only on dark thoughts, but they need constant attention & one day I decided I had better things to do."