Failure

I feel like I have fallen so deep into this hole that I am just high enough to hold my children up until I can collapse.

I don't think that I have anything left to give.

I've been watching my life crumble around me a little at a time, trying to juggle everything - having it all falling down in the end.

I'm selfish if I place my daughters future stability and security in danger, but how much will that security and stability be worth if they don't have a mother?

Ultimately I don't have a choice in the issue. I have a choice to continue fighting against my anger, and my frustration, and circumstances outside my grasp. After 5 months, I don't have the strength.

Let it fall.