Warning: There is some serious mushiness headed this way.
I have to take a few minutes to record my husbands actions and words today.
The first message I got from him this morning when I got to work was in an email:
i know we touched on this last night... but i wanted to say again that you know and UNDERSTAND me better than anyone, ever. you are my soul mate and best friend. the fact that so many people seek to undermine our relationship just makes me feel how special what we have really is. Obviously... they can see something special... and they hate us for it.
you still have incredible self esteem. you are my rock... and i could not be doing any of this without you. i could not hope to have such an amazing life without everything we have done together. i cant see anything that we have with anyone but you.
After I read this and began crying and not caring (out of happiness) at work, I sent him an email saying thank you and got this in return:
no problem.
love of my life
mother of my babies
best... lover... ever!
and:
hehehe... i love you too. it's hard to describe something so unimaginably big as the love i have for you. We really are quite crazy... i don't think people are supposed to be this in love...
My work day was rough today. Everything was hectic. I was yelled at by two separate people for mistakes others had made. (I was however very proud of the way I handled each situation - calmly and I didn't let it effect me personally. YAY ME!) I think a lot of that had to do with all of this love I had coming at me from my husband. As if all of this wasn't enough... this morning I got the confirmation for a "special" mothers day present that we agreed I should buy from Adam and Eve. (WOOHOO!) THEN I get off work, go pick up my daughter, come home, put her down for her nap, and he calls me....
<3 <3 <3
I got to talk to him for 35 minutes. Just about stuff. Daily life, future plans, etc... the "stuff" is what I think is important in a relationship. I get to hear him say he loves me and he misses me and he wishes he were here with us. (And that he would tear my clothes off and ravish me - which never is a bad thing to hear!! ^_-)
While on the phone I am going through the mail and come across a small manila envelope and begin opening it.... inside is a beautiful brown envelope with my name in gold on the front. On the back is a label - The SPA ~ Simply Skin. Inside I find a gift card for a 1 hour pregnancy pampering and massage. (Great, and I am crying again just thinking about it.... ) There's a note:
Dear Mother of my Beautiful Babies,
I hope you have a relaxing Mother's Day. I wish I could be there with you right now. I hope this helps you relax a bit, and forget some of your stresses.
Love,
D
My first mothers day gift. It is perfect. So thoughtful and sweet. I am one lucky mama.
I hold back tears and tell him thank you and how perfect it is.
After Duane had to go for the night, I told him I loved him, and I hung up the phone and decided to call my friend Teri. She usually watches Aidynn if I need her to, and I wanted to see if she could babysit for me, as I thought I might be able to get an appointment in on mother's day weekend. She said definitely and told me that since I got my gift already, she told me that Duane had sent her an email that she thought was very sweet. I asked her to forward it to me......
Hey Teri,
It's Duane. I bought Kristi a gift certificate for a pregnancy massage at a local spa. I was hoping you could help her out by watching Aidynn one of these weekends. She doesn't like to ask herself. She seems to think she is supermom... and she is... but she can use some time to relax once in a while too. I'm sure you know what that's like.
anyway... I believe the gift certificate is kind of an open ended thing... so i don't know when she would want to go. Maybe subtly offer... and pretend like i didn't ask. Hahaha.
Thank you in advance,
Duane
I feel like my heart is going to explode! Like I need to run and scream and let out so much emotion! I love him SO MUCH!! How the hell did I ever come to deserve him???? I've been taking deep breaths and drinking a lot of water to try to get rid of this lovesick dizziness. Remember back in high school (or before) when you had your first deep crush??? How the object of your affections didn't know how you felt but it didn't matter because each time you saw them you felt like you could fly? You felt lovesick and it actually hurt to care so much? How you would get light headed and nervous and not know what to say??
I FEEL THAT WAY ALL THE TIME and it was multiplied today 10 times over!
We have been together for a bit more than 2 years. We have faced so much together. So many people have tried to break us apart. We have been through pregnancy together. We have a daughter together, and another on the way! We have made so many choices together, traumatic and difficult decisions,... and looking back - not a single thing ever phased our love for each other. Looking back there is happiness. The one constant in my life, has been our love. He never misses a day to tell me that he loves me in some way.
Everyday I love him more.
Our love isn't for show, this blog isn't to brag, I don't have to prove anything to anyone. Whether someone believes a relationship like this can exist or not doesn't matter to me, I cannot argue with anyone over what they believe.
All I know is that this is the way I feel. This is our love and not for anyone else. I am thankful for him, and that he chose ME as his wife, and grateful that he is part of my life each and every day. This is what I know is real.
Maybe we are crazy; codependent and utterly insane - we don't care.
We have our love, our babies, and our life together. We are finally HAPPY, a word that was hardly ever used by either of us in the past.
I LOVE HIM!!!
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