Waiting...

So far today has been a long day.

Usually when one takes a day off work it would be expected to be a bit more relaxing than usual, yes? No.

After waking up early and getting Aidynn and myself ready to go, we went to her doctors appointment at 8:30. We had to leave at 8:00 because her doctor is in Rancho... I really should find her a closer pediatrician. She is doing very well. She is in the 75th percentile for her weight and height. Healthy and happy. We did find out today that during the last few weeks she has been sick, she had an ear infection! I suppose that one of the downfalls to having such a calm and mellow baby is that she doesn't complain too much. It seems to be gone now, but just in case the fever comes back I got a prescription for antibiotics.

We left the doctors office and I took her to daycare. After dropping her off I went to the bank. While I was leaving the bank to go to the pharmacy, I realized that I had left her prescription in her diaper bag. So back to daycare I went. I got the prescription, left the house, got in my car, and reached for my cell phone..... My cell phone was in the diaper bag as well. Back into the house I go. Grab cell phone. Finally leave.

I went and filled her prescription and bought a new drainboard and some cough drops. Then I went to Trader Joes to get a few things. They have pre-marinated frozen Ahi Tuna steaks that are just so good! I have been craving them for a while now. So I got 2 packages. I also got some fruits and veggies, and my favorite Virgil's root beer. They also had Lilys, so I bought a few bouquets of those.

On my way home I decided to stop by Macy's and get a new mascara from Clinique (as mine has been driving me crazy) and I got Aidynn a jumper and a dress.

Now I am home... I leave for my appointment in about an hour. I am so nervous! I don't even know why. It's silly really. I will be happy no matter what the gender.

Yes, I would like a boy. One boy, one girl. I always have wanted one of each. Even when I went through infertility issues, I always pictured myself with one boy, one girl. Just like I knew Aidynn was going to be a girl before we found out. But what if I am wrong this time?

After she was born I realized that I would be happy with just Aidynn, but I have been blessed enough to have been given another precious baby and we wanted another baby not too far apart in age. True, we didn't plan them THIS close together, but it also has it's advantages.

Just like there are advantages to both genders. If it is a boy Duane will have a son to pass on his name to. Football and baseball and boy things. Little blue shirts, and trucks, and bugs. If it's a girl, she and Aidynn will be so close in age that they will grow up with a stronger connection. I have tons of clothes that Aidynn barely wore, and to have 2 little ones in dresses on holidays would be adorable. I know Duane is closer with Aidynn than he ever was with his sons. I know it would be the same with another daughter.

There is something about the relationship a father has with his daughters that is indescribable. There is nothing that can be compared to it. Fathers dote on their daughters. It's just the way it is. Even my father and I haven't always been close because of some of the choices he has made, but we have an amazing bond. I will always be a Daddy's girl. Just like Aidynn will always be her Daddy's girl.

I guess we will just have to wait and see.... 53 minutes until I leave to find out.