Does this classify as whining?

I want my husband home now.

I don't think I could put it any more clearly than that. We couldn't be separated before for more than 12 hours without missing each other like crazy. I don't know what made us think that we could be apart for 6 months. Well, they told us it would be 6 months. Then it changed to more like 8 months. Now, he has hurt himself, and who knows how long it will be until he is home. Part of me hopes that he is seriously injured - then he will have to come home. He is finally dealing with the ineptitude of military physicians that I warned him about so many times.

I wrote him today and I asked him to look into Administrative Separation. Basically it will be as if he never enlisted and he can come home. We can figure things out here on our own. He can take evening classes and finish his degree. There is always another option. We will be fine. We just need to find that other option.

Tomorrow marks 50 days since he left. I was doing better knowing that I was going to be able to see him at graduation in a month. Now, he can't train. He can't work on his PT. He won't pass. He won't graduate.

I just want him to come home.

Our daughter was sick today. She had a fever over 102. She was so clingy and at one point as I held her, she just stared at me deliriously. She wouldn't eat anything, and refused water and juice most of the time. She has diarrhea pretty badly. I gave her Tylenol this morning and it didn't seem to help. At noon I gave her Motrin. I felt so bad for her. By mid-afternoon she was feeling better, and her temperature has dropped significantly. She was back to crawling around and smiling again. She is napping right now.

I was so sick this morning that while in the shower, I began coughing so hard that I began dry heaving. All the while Aidynn is screaming because she is miserable. I had to bring her in the bathroom with me while I showered because she wouldn't go back to sleep. At this point I didn't realize she had a fever, and I thought I was going to be late for work. Little did I know...

I don't know what this is that I have. It is wicked. It's like a sticky film I can feel in my lungs, but no matter what I take, it will not come out. I have taken vicks and cough drops and they seem to ease the coughing a little, but they don't get rid of it. I've never had that problem. I've also taken nasal decongestant and tylenol. It seems like everything about this ... monster, is resistant.

I drank an Odwalla Wellness earlier. It has herbs in it, but the way I see it - which is more likely to hurt my baby? Herbs that are meant to help you fight illness? Or a fever of 103, constant hacking, coughing, and dry heaving, not sleeping, feeling achy and miserable, and taking drugs every 6 hours?

I just hope we feel better soon. It's hard enough being an acting single mom to a sick 8 month old, but managing the household, working full time, being pregnant, worrying about your husbands safety, AND being sick all at the same time - there's only so much even this woman can handle.

Oh yes, and this morning running to the bathroom so I didn't pee on myself I clipped my right little toe and second toe in on the bathroom door. The little on is broken; it's swollen and hurts like hell. I don't know about the other one.